Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Friday, November 2, 2012

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Pagan Blog Project - On Being Solitary

Either by choice or circumstance many of us find ourselves alone at some point. My solitary path happens to fall into both categories.

Living a life attached to the military has afforded me the opportunity to travel and experience my country but it has also isolated me through circumstance, this is the lifestyle I love but as everything does it comes with its own set of pros and cons. I've spent a large chunk of the last two years alone. This hasn't been all for the worst. I've learnt I can rely only upon myself during the tough times and I've seen myself grow into a strong, capable and independent woman. All of which has been a boon to my spiritual practice. But on the other side I feel I've somewhat lost touch with the part of me that wants to share and engage with other spiritual souls. I've become so used to my own company over these last years that I am filled with confusion with the sudden desire to be with others. Though today it seems I could look to the horizon and not see another Pagan soul for miles. I know they're out there. They must be right?

My dilemma is that I feel I am finally at a place where I would value a group mind. I feel I have as much to offer as to gain. The main reason I have remained solitary and not sought out others is out of respect. What happens in twelve months when I have to leave? To me a group/coven should function as a family. The spiritual connection between members must be strong as should be their participation. I can't promise I will be there.

So far I have undertaken the majority of my studies alone, with the exception to the distance apprenticeship I began earlier this year. I'm comfortable in my solitude. Being on my own allows me immense freedom. I am free to read what I like, to work when I feel like, to contemplate in my own time. This has created such an intimate bond between myself and my spirituality. Would being a member of a group shift this? I don't know, I've never been part of one. Maybe one day. I've heard the saying when the student is ready the teacher will appear. Perhaps this is also true for covens.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Hekate My Queen

I'm one of those people who when feeling frustrated, anxious, or down like to keep themselves physically occupied to work the energy off. Tonight was one such night. I'll usually busy myself with scrubbing the bathroom until it gleams or vacuuming an already clean room but I just couldn't bring myself to that tonight. Hekate has been warning me that I'm on the brink of burning out completely and that I don't need to be doing absolutely everything I think I do. So heeding her voice I settled myself down to craft a candle dedicated to self.

   The simple act of sitting in silence, working my fingers over the bees wax, warming it with my body temperature and slowly rolling it calms me. I'm not worrying that I am putting 'negative' energy into my candle. I think about how I love to see my altar in the candle light. I love all the intricate shadows that play across the items I've carefully placed there, the light brings some into a  better view and hides others from sight as though they've crossed over the veil & exist only in essence. I sprinkle hand picked lavender over the wax as I roll. I allow the mingled scent of honey and lavender invade me and I give myself over to the experience.

I don't purify/cleanse absolutely every spiritual item I touch to be rid of 'negative' energy. On this night I allowed the act of creating something cleanse my emotions. The energy was transfered from the calming lavender and bees wax into me, not the other way around. I didn't want to do an injustice to my feelings and just get rid of them, I wanted to honour them and then heal.

I light the candle in honour of Hekate's guiding presence in my life. She is there even when I don't realise I need her so...

My Beautiful Queen
Burning torches held before you.
You lead the way
I follow in trust.

Benevolent One of Hearts
Who teaches with tough love
You guide me through
The depths of soul

Hekate of Darkness
Your moon is bare
I call to you
And you are there

Mistress of compassion
In your bountiful wisdom
My heart is full
Due to you

Blessed in Hekate
as are those whom she calls.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

A Lille bit of Self Love

Bees wax candle loaded with rose petals, rose quartz & pomegranate. 

Sometimes, like a lot of mum's, I have a habit of neglecting myself constantly. Just taking a small amount of time to roll this beautiful candle reminds me of the beauty that resides inside. 
Even when I forget...

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Anointing Oil

I spent some time last night crafting an anointing oil for Hekate. I've noticed that I've been spending a lot of time meditating & performing alignments but not near as much time as I want on crafting things like oils, candles and tools. I really enjoys this part of Witchcraft so I though I would share a few pics I took while I was at it...

This oil was made from fresh french lavender I picked from my garden last night.

I have a ceramic tiled breakfast tray that I use whenever I am making oils or incense.

Charging on my Hekate altar.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Pagan Blog Project - Listen... The Earth asks you to Awaken.


I have listened to the deep groan of the ancient land on which I live.
I have tasted her in her organic beauty.
I have smelt her soft lavender and eucalypt scent.
I have laid my hands upon her.
I have felt her vibrate between my toes in the grass.
I have pulsated along with her rhythm.
I have sat in silence with her.
I have cried with her.
I have rejoiced with her.
I have offered all that I am with her,
And she has released me...

Bright, hot energy flows within my spine, undulating and waking me from sleep. I feel it rise and greet my crown. I am filled with the ecstatic source until it over flows around me. I feel my energy shifting outside of the physical. I lay there unable to move as I am overwhelmed. When it eventually calms, it settles itself between my root and sacral. I am told this is my gift, for listening oh so intently every moment.

The above was written during a light meditative/trance state. I have been working with Earth for over a year now. While traveling through my shadow, my Earth, I slowly became grounded. In discovering the essence of Land I discovered the essence of self. Where I come from. I built a foundation of self. I understand myself & I know where I want to take myself spiritually. Experiencing a Kundalini awakening wasn't something I was expecting. We have all read stories of Kundalini going awry & causing havoc. At least I have. Having this energy awaken within me worried me immensely! What was I going to do? I only had a rudimentary understanding of what Kundalini was taught to me by my Reiki teacher. In the end I had to pull upon the strength I have built within myself to understand that truly this would not have occurred had I not been ready. I finally feel as though I am home.....