But for the first time I find myself at a spiritual crossroads with no idea which road I should be turing to. Am I still Gaian? Am I devoted to Cernunnos and Danu? Have I indeed been claimed by Hekate as she insists I have? Is there a way to blend the three paths together?
Hekate's association with crossroads has not escaped my attention. In fact She is the reason I find myself standing there alone now. The reason I am standing alone is because that is where my fate ultimately lies - with myself.
Until now I have considered my life to be a product of my own hand. Spiritually speaking this view has become blurred around the edges. Hekate's arrival in my life forced me into a period of deep introspection and confrontation of every aspect of myself. It is because of Her that I know myself more intimately and have cultivated a intense trust in myself spiritually. Her arrival was unexpected and She immediately placed me in the crossroads. It took me many months to understand why I was there. Looking back I now see a slow stripping away of everything I once believed that left me bare. I was going through so much internal confusion during that time that I was contemplating leaving any form of spirituality behind me forever. Through my pain and frustration I found that I needed to process who I was to be able to redefine who I am becoming now.